I crave that numbing sh*ts and all of that calming f*ck,
or maybe that euphoric state that uncontrollable manic,
that transpires you into some sort of sexual maniac.
So, give me that one good shot
a 50 mg, intramuscular, maybe
Or a 200 mg shot in the buttock
Or a 3 mg/kg intravenous, oh, I would love that!
Just don’t overdose me
induced ego-death might be too much
It’s quite shameful engraving that
on top of my decaying tomb
I might as well end me, and voluntarily
send my soul to doom.
NDE after overdosing K fascinates me
that reminds me of an astral body
You’re one with the universe, they say
Meet your higher self, perhaps
Or take form into some quantum mechanics and fused with larger forces
Other says you’ll enjoy some mental flashbacks
that would be unfortunate if you had that repressed memories of childhood neglect or rejection, yes, too bad.
Some experienced that classical psychedelics
of unfathomable distorted shapes and breathing sounds
mystical entity, or some sort of orgasmic-inducing figures
or some actual mandalas
Some even said they reached nirvana
But I fear I might end up with that pitch-black tunnel,
a gateway to eternal hell.
Imagine yourself dancing with those tormented soul
Screaming in agony, heightened senses, pained right to the bone
Perhaps, I would be lucky
If I’ll stumble upon that golden light or energy
That would tell me, “It’s not your time yet, go back.”
This one might be funny for those whose eye sees organic only
I mean what’s the point of your life?
After you die you just end up in your preatomic life?
Or let me see how you see it yourself
And I might give you some sort of that Sympath
I’m quite fascinated with that oriental or Egyptian perspective of the dead
You get to that higher planes or world
And be some sort of transcendental spirit
that’s way more cliche than to what I was used to know.
But I was bound to believe
a narrow path that leads you to heaven and meet your Creator
or a wide road that sends you to eternal flame,
there’s nothing in between.
But what I really needed is a good amount of K
that induces controlled mental delirium
and forms delusional mental constructions
that disorient you from the reality,
perhaps makes you own the reality.
At least, for once, escape from reality.